Life can sometimes take you to your limits. It takes you to places where you know you can't stand any more, only to discover there that somehow, some way, a spark of strength remains you never knew you had. You discover that your limits are not your demise but that God in you enables you to keep on pressing on.
Some days you want to retreat and throw-in-the-towel because you know you can't go on, that you have reached the end of your resources. Some days you are tempted to call into question that awesome Biblical promise on which you have relied so often, "God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able..." (I Cor. 10:13). Some days you fall, exhausted, into the dust, and know you have reached your wits' end.
In that desert place, however, God is at work. You can't always see Him and you don't always have a visible handle on how He is at work. He is at work, though, because somehow, some way, you find yourself getting out of the dust, brushing yourself off, and continuing on the journey.
There is a grace in being at wits' end. Oswald Chambers has a wonderful word about this. He says, " When a person is at his wits’ end, it no longer seems to be a cowardly thing to pray; in fact, it is the only way he can get in touch with the truth and the reality of God Himself. " (Oswald Chambers, My Utmost For His Highest, August 29). Wits' end leads to “the reality of God Himself.” What an interesting thought.
The desert leads to truth. The desert leads to reality. The desert leads to God. That which at certain times leads you to believe you are going to die, is actually leading you to your only true source of life. Wits' end is not the moment to despair; rather, it is the place where one is invited to meet the One True God.
At wits' end you recognize you are not self-sufficient and that the world does not revolve around you. You recognize your limits and come to know that ultimately and finally, in so many areas, you are powerless. At the moment of recognition one of two things can happen. You can get bitter and withdraw deeper and deeper into your pain, or you can see, by faith, possibilities you never saw before. At that moment Oswald Chambers helps up again. He says,
Be yourself before God and present Him with your problems— the very things that have brought you to your wits’ end. But as long as you think you are self-sufficient, you do not need to ask God for anything…To say that “prayer changes things” is not as close to the truth as saying, “Prayer changes me and then I change things.” God has established things so that prayer, on the basis of redemption, changes the way a person looks at things. Prayer is not a matter of changing things externally, but one of working miracles in a person’s inner nature.
It occurs to me that in this thing called life, I am the one who needs to be worked on. God is not the problem here. I am. The desert wits' end, is my divine opportunity to "Give Jesus Christ the opportunity and the room to work" (Chambers). I want to call being at wits' end of the devil. Maybe, however, it is the place of grace where I meet, not the devil, but God, the place where I am invited to invite God in, and in His presence, "to get into touch with the reality of God Himself" (Chambers).
Suddenly, wits' end is the sacramental table where grace is extended into my life and where, being confronted by my lack of sufficiency, I discover the all-sufficiency of the God who meets me right where I am.
